what am i going to do .
[Dar sleeping in my room, while im blogging]
I didnt go anywhere again today . I was soo tired , I just kept on sleeping & sleeping . My life is getting pretty boring lately and i feel so lost . No mood to go shopping , no mood to hang out with my girlfriends , no mood to do anything at all . I really dont know what the hell is wrong with me.I feel so lost , i really dont know where to start from. Is eating & sleeping all i can do ?I've become so lazy. Is there nothing for me to look forward to? No goals? I really regret not going for my 0'levels . Not even studying for them. I wish i could be one of those choosing courses , applying to get into a poly =/
Now im neither here nor there . should i sit for my o's this year , study at an ITE ? take up a beauty course ? I really dont know and dont have much time to decide. O-levels registration is just ard the corner . big mistake i made , big headache im having now . The problem is im so dependant on people . If i'm going to take my o's this yr i want someone to accompany me . If not i dont think im disciplined enough to study all by myself . i just hate myself =/ I shouldn't even have left SAC in the first place . Stupid me =x hope i get a solution to my problems soon . I dont want to be sitting around , doing nothing wishing $$ will fall from the sky . For all the stupid decisions i made , the irresponsible actions i've taken i've just stupidly realized that at the end of the day i stand alone . Nobody's gonna give a damn of what becomes of me. Isnt it too late to realize all this now. I'm not going to live on my parents money forever. I dont want to become some ingrate =)
Had Caesar salad and corn soup for supper . Delicious ! but the stupid salad cost me $4.50 and i think its blardy expensive for just vegetables.
okays, the time now is 2.55am and im still bored. In the past few hours, I watched tv , surfed the net & logged in to friendster and after that felt hungry . I went into my mum's room to look for food. She cooked brownrice cashew nut porridge for Dar& i . Simply delicious yet easy to prepare since everything is in her room. Found cheesealmond&apricot spread in her fridge. Goes best with meiji crackers. My favourite but i didnt have that. Maybe tmr. Still felt hungry so dar went downstairs , my kitchen and came up with toasts and butter. Im feeling so full now and alittle better . Here are the photos of what went into my tummy , they may not look appealing but at least they're all made with an extra ingredient . love <3>
3:56 AM
[Dar sleeping in my room, while im blogging]
