i really dont know what i want .
if my behaviour is hurting myself and those around me , i guess i'll have to do something about it . i just wanted to spend sometime away from everything . i just wanted to be with Dar alone , everyday . He's happy , i'm happy . At least we need not quarrel anymore . So many things happened in the past . Too much for me to take. Lies , betrayal , hurts . I just needed some peace . I didnt know that was the time my sister needed me most . I thought she was happy & enjoying life . I didnt know she was hurting just like me. Now she blames me. Everyone has problems . I dont wish to go back to the past , i dont want history to repeat itself . i wont let it happen . I'm sorry . you all said i changed ? Maybe? maybe u'll have to ask yourselves what u did . You all said if u see me on the streets u wont be able to recognize me cos i've changed so much. For me i didnt recognize u a long time ago. For now just let things be as they are, I need sometime to think , to forget . Then we'll see cos i really dont know what to do now , i really dont know what i want .
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