The day u went away
woke up early , took a quick shower . tried to wake dar up gently cos he was angry with me the night before for making my final decision. Asked him to accompany me to the clinic , he groggily walked to the toilet to take a shower. My mum picked us up from his block and we went to the clinic . Dar was so quiet all the way. could sense he was angry and sad. when the nurse gave me some pills to swallow he looked at them with hurt in his eyes . i was feeling sad and guilty myself . Anyway we sort of quarrelled when i asked him to wait for me and he said he was going home . the nurse asked me to go upstairs and dar just left like that . So i didnt know if he was going to wait for me or not . i was already bleeding by then.


upstairs, the five beds were already occupied so i had a room with one bed to myself , i called mum and dar about a million times. they didnt answer - i was thinking wtf . read some magazines took some photos . until finally it was my turn. the doctor gave me a jab of anaesthesia, he re-assured me and i could feel the room spinning and soon i was fast asleepwhen i awoke i was already lying in one of the five beds, felt very dizzy and had stomach cramps felt like shitting . there were ppl sleeping on the left and right bed . got up to get my hp below my bed , msged mum told her i wanted to go home. she said the clinic was closed and it stated that it only opened at 2.30pm which was half and hour more. rested and at 2.30 everyone was awake. they talked to me but i didnt answer. quickly walked down , couldnt walk straight was so weak.


the nurse who was outside said wah so fast u wake up uhh . didnt bother went straight down and saw dar sitting there , i sat beside him , he hugged me, he looked so sad. took my medicine and mum drove me back to his house to rest-

i know im in the wrong , i did what i did out of selfishness , i didnt do what i did because it was best for you but i did what i did because it was the best for me. i really wanted u from the beginning but things didnt turn out the way i wanted it to . its not that i cant bring u up , its not that i cant give u the best , i could but i didnt want to. blame me , i am sorry but i really did love u , really really did . daddy loves u too , daddy cried for u and hated me for days . daddy keeps looking at yr photos . my baby , im sorry , now that u're gone i feel the emptiness in me , u'll always be apart of our memories forever ; always. imissu



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